I cry aloud to God, aloud to God, that he may hear me. In the day of my trouble I seek the Lord; in the night my hand is stretched out without wearying; my soul refuses to be comforted. (Psalm 77:1-2) ............................................ A journal chronicling my struggle as a woman, to find my way out of an abusive relationship, and to find myself again.

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Sunday, May 23, 2004



My name is Katie, and this is my new blog. I'm creating it as a way to keep a journal that my husband won't find. The reason for that is that I have just started the ball rolling to get a divorce, and he can't know until he's served with the divorce papers and a restraining order. I can't keep any kind of journal at home, because I've tried before to hide things like papers or journals, and no matter how well I think I have something hid, he always finds it. I suppose he could find this, too, but I don't imagine he'll be looking, so it feels fairly safe.

I went to a support group for abused women a few days ago, even though it felt weird. I mean, he doesn't beat me! But I know, of course, that there are all kinds of abusive relationships, and I am in one, no doubt about it.

I hate every minute of every day of living with this man. Every second of every minute of every day. I get so depressed that some days just getting out of bed feels like trying to push my will against a very sturdy brick wall.

I haven't always been this way. I fought my way out of years of depression and was finally getting my life together, and had left him, but I let myself, as so many abused women do, fall back into the same old trap. I thought I was doing a good thing, and I suppose I was, but it wasn't a good thing for me.

Now I just want out. I want my serenity back, my life back, my home back. I want ME back! And I want this for my children, too, especially Abby, my youngest.

So here I go. We'll see how it goes down, and how it ends up. Feel free to lend me your thoughts.



Blogger Katie said...

just to see if this works

May 25, 2004 at 12:38 AM  
Blogger Vikkicar said...

Hi. It does work. Hehehe. Got your link from Blogsisters. A few months late as it is, welcome to the blogging world. I started May of 2002. I never looked back. Heheh. Godbless.

p.s. I always read the first post. I'll try to read the rest. Will bookmark you.

August 11, 2004 at 10:28 AM  

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